I’ve always known my sister was her favorite
It wasn’t a big deal
It didn’t bother me.
Now that all of this shit has been happening
Like sure, my youngest of the two can know that I have cancer and I might have to chop my boob off but her? Oh dear no. Let me wait a month to tell her because I don’t want to worry her like that…
And now that her boob actually is gone, I understand that she’s in a lot of pain but I’ve offered to her places like dropping off her prescription. Or buying groceries. You can’t be cooped up at home forever. Her excuse always was that she didn’t feel good or was in too much pain. But today?
Where is she?
Oh yeah she’s at the mall during the busiest time of the year shopping with my sister.
Like I don’t understand. I love that woman so much. I would without a question kill myself for her.
But I’m never good enough.
i just want to scream and cry forever
for the rest of my life.
and when i die
maybe then i’ll feel better
maybe then i’ll be relieved
or maybe i’ll just keep crying in my grave
So cute :3
no stahp. nooo
HALP i cant decide.
this is serious.
she asked for this shoot as a gift to her boyfriend
these pictures will be in an 8x10 leather bound book
so which is best??
oh my god i love you
i love you too samamam (:
is it terrible that at first i couldnt stand to look at my own mother without crying or having my throat swell?
is it terrible of me?
laying there in pain and agony in the hospital waiting to see her family
and all i could think about was the fact that she only had one fucking boob
what the fuck is wrong with me?
what the actual fuck jessica?
im so fucking ashamed
but i couldn’t help it
i just couldnt
im so sorry
im so sorry mom
Sunday 8:39pm Oct. 27, 2013
my mom is doing better
she can stand
she can walk
she can use the restroom on her own
she still can’t bathe on her own though
and i have to do her hair and makeup…which is fun
she still can’t lift her arm and is in a lot of pain
i hate going to work
i hate leaving her
overall i would happy and ok with the way things are going, but she has to go back in this thursday for more procedures, which means more pain….
i love you mom
you made the right choice
i love you
and everything will be better with time
My mother’s surgery was only scheduled to last 3 hours.
That’s how long this type of procedure takes- they said.
It has now been 6, almost 7 hours.
Please. This isn’t ok. I just want my mom back.